I'm now a few days into this Healthier Me malarkey, and it hasn't been as hard as I thought. Maybe that's because I want it more than I have in the past, maybe it's because of the awesome help and support I'm getting, maybe it's because of the twins. I don't know, I just know that I WANT THIS.
Already, after just a few days, I'm starting to feel better. I thought I must be imagining it, until last night when my husband said 'Don't you feel like you have more energy? I know I do.'
Yes I do.
I'm also learning to have more respect for myself, and for the God-given body I have. God is the Master-Craftsman, and I (like you, and you too) am one of his carvings. Or, to put it another way that's been used before, my body is an engine God has created, an engine that needs good fuel to run the way it was intended.
I am worth that fuel.
I am worth the time it takes to make a lunch, even if it's just me who's there to eat it.
I am worth the price of a punnet of blueberries.
This is a learning curve, right now I'm weighing and measuring what I eat meticulously. This will ease off as I learn to gauge proper portion sizes by eye, but right now, it's all part of the learning process.
I'm also learning that healthy food is, well, nice! It's tasty, it looks good (I'm a big believer that we eat with our eyes first)
Now, my diet was not atrocious before, it was just a bit high on the content side of things, and there were probably more sweeties and processed foods than is good for a body. I did eat veg, and fruit, and meat, and fish.
Eating healthier is also enjoyable, because I THINK about what I'm eating. Think about it, plan it, and look forward to it, rather than shoving any old crap on a plate in a last-minute panic.
This is a lifelong journey, but my walking shoes are tied, my knapsack's on my bag, and I'm ready to go a-wandering along that mountain track.