Tuesday, 3 April 2012

Trying to Shush the Should.

'Should' is a word that features heavily in my inner-monologue.

I 'Should' get dressed as soon as I wake up.

I 'Should' be on top of all the housework.

I 'Should' get the twins out in the fresh air everyday.

I 'Should' eat healthily

I 'Should' exercise

I 'should' take the twins to mother and toddler groups.

And so it goes, on and on, and on.

I know that many of these things would enhance my life, and the life's of my children.

But I'm tired. I'm tired of the never-ending insidious echo of the 'shoulds'. I'm tired of not knowing whether to do 'A' or 'B'

I'm tired of fighting with myself, and with time, from the minute I get up in the morning, until the minute I go to bed at night.

I know that these are not huge issues. I know I'm in a valley, and will climb my way out of it. I'm just tired of being my own worst enemy.

I'm tired of hearing my own voice say 'You should...'